School has been going well. I had a week where there was nothing to do which was so relaxing. I definitely had some crazy nights thanks to my easy schedule. I had a test on Monday which I studied for all day Sunday. I think I did well but I never know. I should find out soon. School has been boring, but I have been keeping up with everything. Definite pass.
I have been slacking slightly at the gym lately. I was doing a bunch of dance class and then practicing dt, but my core needs more work. I have also been walking a lot since the weather has been so nice. At least my legs will be looking pretty in a few weeks. Now its time to get my abs into shape meaning no more Valentine's Day cupcakes (no matter how orgasmic). Mediocre.
Family relations are strong. I even called and talked to Daddy on the phone for 30 minutes the other day. Huge improvement over occasional facebook messages. Being more open with Momma Mia has also shown signs of success. We had our own Mother/Daughter day last weekend, and ever since she has been showering me with gifts. Love love love. As for opening up more to friends, I have been doing very well. I have been talking more people and trying to expand my circle some. Its been nice receiving more diverse opinions on problems and feelings I have. I have also opened up a lot to my best friend. I know it upsets her that I don't talk to her about the stuff that has been hurting me recently or my opinions of certain people. I finally told her about a lot of the pain Goose caused me and how I feel about it. I was honest about how he made me feel and where I thought I was with my emotions. It was good to talk to someone, but bringing everything to the surface made me feel really sad. Overall I feel like being less holed up with my feelings should be a good thing. Another definite pass.
Shacking has been really fun lately, but I feel as though I have been a little harsh with my actions. I should learn to be less of a bitch. He is a really nice guy, and I feel like I am starting to like more than just the physical. Relationships just scare the hell out of me especially this week. This week for relationships has just been so depressing. I have felt so lonely. Valentine's Day was fun, but not having one for the first time was really sad. Thank god for sisters. The 17th is also going to be so depressing. I can't decide if I want Goose to try to talk me just so I know he is still thinking about me on that day. I know I will be thinking about him no matter that he hurt me so bad or was just a huge asshole. So fucked up. I want him to go away. I don't feel anything for him anymore. I just miss what was once there. IDK. I am weird. I will be much happier after this week. Its just this first time that will be hard, but I will get through it. Boys fail.
As for trying something new, I have reached out to the deeg clan in New Orleans. It will be so cool to stay with them for Mardi Gras. This will be the first time I will have been to Fat Tuesday without my family. Crazy crazy times to come. So excited! Definite pass.
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