Falling Apart All Alone

The comment never ceases to be true. "I have no doubt you will be successful, but you will always be alone." When put in a bad situation, I can count on the kindness of others to help me, but close friends are not really to be found. Alone I will always be. That person I can call at 5 in the morning is there, but the one who will stay awake and let me break down without judgment is gone. I don't doubt that some of my sisters would be there to help me, but I am not sure if I can show them the weakness inside of me. That would make me so vulnerable to the world, and how can I trust just anyone with that side of me. To cry is to be so weak. Why would I ever give someone else that power over me? To upset me so much as to bring me to tears. I am unbreakable. A lion at heart yet so many have attempted to bring me down. Why do I let them? I may be alone, but strength I find in myself can't be taken away. It may be very lonely, but alone I am unbreakable. The connection found in others is always tested and seemingly always broken. The connection found in myself has been tested and held true every time. I can glue myself back together but it will be by myself. Others need not help me because I am strong on my own. When I open up to others they only seem to test my trust and try to break me. I have faith in myself and myself alone. I will not break. I am the captain of my soul; I am the master of my fate. WEH said it all in those last two lines. They have held true all of these years and continue to hold true. When I fall apart all by myself, I will be there to pick up the pieces. I feel the pain and dry my eyes. In the end everything is gonna be fine fine fine. I've got one hand in my pocket and the other is hailing a cab. Because everything is gonna be alright. Lullaby.